Sometimes I can feel overwhelmed by all God is teaching me and showing me and revealing to me about Himself and MYSELF (ouch!). What is Faith to you? Is having complete trust & confidence in God easy or hard for you?
Father is showing me that the beauty of walking by Faith is not having all the answers, not understanding at the time, stepping out into the unknown and completely trusting in His character & His calling every single step of the way when absolutely NOTHING makes sense. Moving to Robbinsville and trusting Rance's calling to be here was a really huge time period in my life where the Lord tested my trust & confidence in Him. I remember not understanding and even questioning why Robbinsville? There was even a time I doubted Rance's calling because I was stuck on myself having to leave all. It did not seem fair. My flesh was at WAR with the Spirit living inside of me. It was an extremely hard test but God knew there were many things that Jennifer needed to DIE to, let go of, and surrender to Him. I thank God for that test. I thank God for His Spirit and a loving husband that helped me recognize my selfishness. I thank God for relentlessly pursuing my heart because He knew moving me here was what was spiritually best for me even though I did not understand. I would have never realized some of the things I held onto until He moved me across the state. It hurt but I felt more freedom than I can begin to explain when I let it all go (family, friends, and the list goes on) and stepped out on Faith, trusting Father's will, even when I could not make sense of it. Father does not have to give me an explanation and His reasoning behind things. HE IS GOD! He can do what He wants, whenever He wants, however He wants! He just says "TRUST ME, I KNOW WHAT IS BEST FOR YOU!"
Who wouldn't desire this 'perfect peace'?!?
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